it hurts when you know that the person you love and gave your all only thinks that what you both have is something temporary. indeed, there is no such thing as forever. but still there's what we call a lifetime. and aside from money, fame or power, having someone for the rest of our life is something all of us keep on looking and striving for.
i receive a message from a friend last night that turned into a long phonecall conversation. although we were not that close, we have managed to keep in touch after college. the last time i've heard from him was, he was dating someone at work and fortunately they've ended up with each other. but after two years of being together, my friend decided to call it off.
the news was not new for me. but i chose not to confirm it to him. aside form the fact that we were not that close, i thought he still might be hurting and on the process of moving on. but last night he decided to tell me the entire story.
he told me that they met at work. then after a month of dating and getting to know each other, they have decided to be exclusive. then three months after, my friend moved in to his partner's place and there he have stayed for almost a year. the experience was something he never felt before. there were times that he will be taught to cook by his partner, design their place together and share sleepless nights just talking to one another.
until, he noticed that everything drastically becomes different the moment they've stepped in their office. his partner would let go of his hand and as much as possible would not talk to him. his partner would go lunch alone or with someone else and would go home earlier or later than my friend's shift ends.
in the entire time they were together, he haven't met any of his partner's friend, outside the circle they have at work. there were also times where his partner would go out alone for family gathering or his friend's night out and would insist or make alibis for my friend not ot go.
at first, my friend tried understanding his partner's situation. until they came across a serious fight and ended up bragging out all of these.
there, the reason came out. his partner doesn't believe the relationship and even everything that they have. basically, he just enjoyed the companionship and happiness whenever they were together. it was just a spur or a phase of his life that he needs to pass through.
he was hesitant at first in commiting into the proposed relationship. he taught about what his friends, family and colleagues would say against him. so he tended to shy my friend away from his picture. so that the people who knew and around them would not be suspicious of what they have.
surprisingly, he have sustained the entire theatrics for almost a year and nobody knew about their relationship aside from my friend's circle.
he (my friend's partner) concluded that at the end, he still (will) see himself settling down with a wife and children. everything that they have will be just a part of his past. a dellusional relationship brought about by lust. he laso blamed my friend because he should have not flirted him in the first place because he is straight.
those words just blew my friend away from his sanity. everything that he have loved and believed in with what was he thought to be the meant relationship just crumbled down as simple as that. he broke up with his partner and still trying to move.
after everything that happenend, my friend is now having difficulties believing. the shadow of the relationship he had was something he feared to happen again. now, he is burrying himself to his work and hope that atleast he would be able to move on. hoping that he could start believing again.