an awkward moment

have you ever experienced a friend or someone approaching with an unusual expression in his/her face? forehead dripping with round sweat. eyes looking down differently from the way it used to be. indefinite body movement. feet as heavy as anvils. by the time s/he is standing infront of you, s/he'll look at you.

then you'll ask, " is there a problem? you don't look the usual."

there is an awkward silence for a moment.

lips will open but words will hesistate to come out. until finally s/he utters, "i love you."

because i haven't. nonetheless, what if such will happen to you without you expecting it? how will you react? what will you do?

the other day, a friend talked to me about thinking of confessing his feelings to a friend. basically, we made a run down, plans and probable actions to take on all circumstances that may happen upon the actual event. i never received any outcomes of the event yet.but then i came up with the weirdest idea, i wondered what if i am the person that my friend is referring to. thus, i am writing it now.

based from experience, i can say that despite everything about me and modesty aside, there were still a number of individuals who fell for me. nonetheless, they never really confronted me face-to-face (probably because they knew that i hate being confronted). rather they have relayed these to common friends. luckily, i know where the loyalty of my friends stand.

it was indeed quite ackward at first. for the first time within your friendship, you don't know what to do and say the next time you'll meet again. everything is taken in consideration with extreme cautious and sensitivity because you don't really want them to take it differently, right? but i believe that it is way different from what it used to be if you'll be confronted face-to-face. for the event requires you an immediate reaction. for rationality could no longer hide the spontaneity that is being asked out of a very brief time. you might be nailed from where your standing. even your words might fail you. but still a reaction is compelled to be given out.

everything about this may remain mystery for now, atleast for me. but who knows, probably it might come out infront of you after reading this. if that will happen, please, just don't forget to share it as well. atleast for everyone's sake.