suddenly, she dwell on the issue of me haven't had any (known) relationships before. knowing i am not really comfortable talking about my personal life, she has able to save all the guts she needed to ask me that. although surprised of the question, i realized i also haven't had asked myself that question too.
" you tell me," i said.
" well, unlike most of the people i know, i think it's because you're smarter," she answered.
i jerked laughing. " why do you say that?'" i asked.
she bursted laughing too. i felt she's throwing sarcasm on me again. then she paused.
" so you think, college relationships are petty relationships?" this is the que of a good debate. i can just sense it.
" not all. probably what i am referring at is more with regard to the set up that you have chose," she retaliated. i know where exactly she is leading me.
" well, open relationship is not really that bad and complicated. i mean, if the main purpose of having someone is for mutual growth. then why would we need to restrict them or restrict ourselves with the conventional set up? probably, what i am just driving at is i find it very selfish to expect something to your partner if not always, just because you have committed yourself to one another---the conventional norm. well, it worked for me for the past six years. less expectations, less hurt. call me hypocrite, call me manhid but the thing is i have lived and became happy with it," i explain imagining myself as a love therapist.
" well i couldn't argue with that it is you're choice," she doted the issue.
"exactly!'" end of the conversation. there goes the victorious smile and the evil laughter within.