Thursday, December 25, 2008

my nightmare before christmas

as years passed, it seemed like the essence of christmas are for kids have been shifted to chrismas are for those who are fortunate. it was 4 hours before christmas and i was still outside, doing some last minute shopping for some friends, which ended up going home with only a take out dinner.

i roamed from katipunan, gateway, farmers to trinoma, just to look for a book by haruki murakami's sputnik sweetheart, which i promised i'll give as a gift for a friend who just came from singapore. unfortunately, from all the bookstores i have been, including all there other branches within the metro, they gave me just one response, "sorry, sir. out of stock."

walking empty handed, i decided to take the long trip going home. i took a bus from trinoma to cubao. then a train ride from cubao to katipunan and then another tricycle ride from katipunan to my place. all because of lack of taxis around. but despite those rides, i was able to realize a lot of things about today's event, christmas eve.

among the streets i walked into i noticed that there are a lot of commuters than usual. obviously, because of the said occasion. but i observed that there is a certain similarity among their faces. it was despite the spirit the season is promoting, sad and long faces are still prevalent among the streets of metro manila. far different from those you will see among people inside malls like those i have been, where everyone are enjoying, spending and celebrating the yuletide seasons through piles of boxes and gift bags.

while in the streets, i saw a man, probably in his late 40s, rushing towards home and carrying a piece of small bag with probably three pieces of relatively big fishes. then there was a mother carrying her son on her lap while begging for "pamasko" along aurora overpass. there was also this old woman, standing on her bent back, nodding to ask passers by for alms and who would not notice the families sleeping along the same boulevard. not to mention they have babies with them as young as two months lying flat on the hard and cold floor.

after each scenes, i asked myself, how do or will they celebrate christmas? or if they ever celebrated it far different from what they are having now?

probably, that is something i am struggling inside. i have the tendency to create stories within my head from one look among these people and i just can't help it, that sometimes its becoming too fatalistic.

but when i thought how pitiful i am spending christmas at work alone and learning that i am missing 5000 in my salary today, i realized that i am actually more fortunate than these people since i have all the traditional ways to celebrate it. i can still buy food, gifts and go to parties if i want to. but in second thought, they are also fortunate in their own context because atleast, they have their family to celebrate with. regardless what they have on their table or floor. while i am all alone.

i actually fell asleep having these on mind and just thought that this will be just any ordinary day that will just come and go. but when i woke up exactly 12 midnight, i found 45 messages on my phone composed of christmas greetings from family, relatives and friends and they are still coming. from there atleast, i realized that i am actually not alone and have all the reasons to celebrate it all by myself.


gillboard said...

Even with the long sad faces of the crowd, I still wish you and your family a Happy Christmas, Ewwik!!!

dabo said...

ang kulit mo naman eh.. politiko ka..kaya ka binabaha ng messages..

Kiks said...

mewwy kwizmas ewik.

Lance said...

5k? sayang naman nun.. baka naman bibigyan ka ng refund nyan..hehe

This is one of the happiest Christmas I've ever had..and this makes me even more excited for the new year's celebration which i will be spending at home with my whole family..

Maayong Pasko, bai!

angel-o said...

it's nice that you see things beyond their utmost visage... really, we appreciate things mostly when we see the dearth of others...=(
happy belated Christmas...

Toilet Thoughts said...

Maligayang Pasko!!!!

Alam mo, pansin ko masmalungkot tong pasko na to kesa sa mga nakaraan. Pero kahit mas konti ang mga kumukutikutitap na mga ilaw sa kalsada, hindi nmn un ang tunay na kahulugan ng pasko.

Maligayang Pasko ulit!

DAlwang beses ba napost to?

PUSANG-gala said...

parang pareho tayo ng pinagdadaanan---I don't know if we are the same on this one but I also love making stories out of my observations but most of them are part of analyzing what went wrong....why we have a lot of ails these I tend to focus a lot on the negative aspect that's why I fail to appreciate the small blessings sometimes.....

then again, all's well that ends well diba?

Anonymous said...

Waaaaa. Anung nangyari sa 5000?

amicus said...

christmas in our house is not really about noche buena but the day of 24 preparing food for the 25th. when i say day, i mean whole day. happy new year ewik [naki ewik daw. haha]!