Thursday, February 20, 2014

tonight we might write the saddest story

probably one of the saddest part of life is waking up an inch away from someone you thought to be the person you will spent your life with.

looking at that space. it reminded you about the entire journey of you finally finding yourself here. the almost endless search, solitary introspects and countless meltdowns.

interesting how much that inch of space can draw things out from your head. about monotony, being stagnant, and basically just being --- this.

being this when you have so much to give and do. when the picture of life ahead is strangely different from the idea you have framed before.

is this something you can work on or bear for the rest of your life?

it makes it more complex when loving seem to be more difficult. not because an emotion is absent but because competing to provide more than what is the other resonates becomes rather tiring and unachievable.

it makes you wonder the last time your stomach churn because of uncertainty or how your body hair raise because of excitement. you realized you have unconsciously become numb.

you are caught in between crossroads: when your youth is clamoring for your potentials while your perspective cries for stability.

funny how it is all happening inside but you can not seem to find the answer within. but its even funnier, knowing that this was everything you wanted --- the fruit of waiting and those forgotten memories; but now you cannot seem to find the right facilities to hold on it.

you rose up from the bed and stood next to the remains of a not distant memory. trying to focus on the smallest details from the lines, curves and minute movements: basically tracing back the reasons.

more than happiness and passion, it is never easy to claim contentment. but it is interesting how most, position time in a paradigm of pure emotions and rationalization.

somehow, it torn us; and our ideas of a perfect companionship. asking how can someone drop something everyone has been dying to be in? something invested with so much and have managed to have stayed for the longest time--- until now?

tonight, you might write the same sad story over again or perhaps a new one. but regardless, of where your pen leads you, promise me, you will neither be scared of making a decision nor come up with something just out of your volition.


♥ N o v a said...

I have found that to be the hardest part about holding onto someone and your relationship with them -- growing together rather than apart, and keeping your eyes focused towards the same future. And to further complicate things, whether you yourself stays true to what you originally wanted when you first entered this union with someone else, and not deviating from that.

Lance said...

so i thought I should also say it here - i adore your 'no caps' style of writing. i have never read a blog for like in forever, and reading this, with your style on it, made the experience totally nostalgic.

i feel that you had so much questions in your mind while you're scripting this. it tells how all of us are bound to just, at one point, question our very state, our motives and our satisfaction or contentment. but isn't it that life is really about that? our plans and dreams of the future don't actually become exactly how we planned it. it's always 'more' or 'less'.

Aris said...

minsan mahirap talaga na sa isang paglalakbay, biglang magsasanga ang landas pagdating sa dulo.

Dabo said...

di ito para sa akin noh? haha

Nate said...