Monday, August 25, 2008

contentment

you wake up bathing with sweat. even with your eyes still half close, your hand automatically reaches your phone. it already knows where your cellphone is, even if it already roamed your entire bed while you were fast asleep. you checked for some messages and missed calls. then reply to them with some sense. after realizing you are no longer dreaming, you get out of your bed and head to the toilet. after you're regime, you go back to your craddle and turn the television on. you scan for any interesting show in a typical noon. once settled, you open your laptop and check for any emails. you surf for a number of websites until your tummy pleads, thats your queu.you then decide to put in your slippers and hit the streets. you drag yourself in search for a place that you haven't eaten yet. but the choices are thin, especially if you are living in a place for most of your years.
after taming your stomach for a moment, you then return back home. while walking, you'll calculate how many hours left (like you usually do) before you need to go to work again. once you have determined it, you'll squeeze yourself out for something worthwhile doing. but the prize is as scarce as a diamond in a pile of broken glasses. so at the end, you find yourself forced to watch either a movie that you have already seen for the sixth time or daisy siete when worst comes to worst.by the time you need to prepare for work, that is the moment that you'll start bargaining for another 15 minutes with yourself. chances are, if the diligent ego wins, you will have an extra 30 minutes to smoke before going to work. but if the stubborn-you wins, you'll lose another 200 php for the taxi fare.then after a long day of work, you'll find yourself exhaustingly walking and commuting towards home alone. nothing in mind but to lay down on your bed and sleep until you never wake up. until you dream a small house infront of a beach, frames and frames of colorful canvasses, rolling terrains and two hands holding one another. but before you know it, you will open your eyes again and realize that you are bathing with your own sweat. there, the same cycle continues. you'll tell yourself that your routine seems to be endless.
***contentment is probably man's missing other half. almost everybody keeps on searching for it through material wealth, bodily pleasure, emotional stability and even intellectual satisfaction. but sometimes, once it is achieved, we will then realized that this is not the true contentment that we are looking for. thus, we look again.everybody is endlessly chasing it: without knowing that the path that we are taking is actually our own routines. nonetheless, everyone will agree, that not all of us have the same form of contentment. it may vary from one another. and for some of us, we even find our own contentments in the very routine that we are taking.
well, i just wish that i am one of them, who can live and loves their routine.

19 comments:

Bino/Geno said...

Weee ako nauna. Hihi.

Hmmm.. Taga katips ka diba? Huntingin kita sa labas ng blue school. Hihi. Magmeet naman tayo when I go back to U-belt. :)

dak said...

Wow! I also cannot stand routine, I need diversity or otherwise I become bored and feel cramped.

That's why I am where I am now, if I'll practice what I took in college, boring...

That's why you should finish law school. Hehehe... Dba?

Kiks said...

the typical 9-5 job (whether PM or AM) is something i did not dream of having.

probably one of them reasons why i am here.

boredom is something most people contend with to survive.

White said...

What if we never become contented? Until when can we continue to be bedouins in our own lives?

Hay, contentment. :-|

jericho said...

contentment is such a loaded term. it is a double-edged sword. it may lead to a blissful life or to stagnation and then decay. ;)

Mugen said...

It takes some mastery to contain one's ambition.

Hindi ko matandaan sino kasama ko noon. Told him, I admired the trees. Sabi niya bakit daw.

Kasi they can wait forever. They grow in one place, never moving, never desiring to be planted elsewhere. They bury their roots, plant themselves deeper.

Pero they never move, they grow big and sturdy in one place.

Ngayon ko narealize mas pamatay ang routine mo kesa sa akin. No wonder, I still love my routine.

bulitas said...

that vicious cycle in our lives is one of those things that makes us sick.

well, it will always boils down to your decision to quit the cycle and change the course of things in your life, or to embrace the cycle and live in it and be contented, hoping that someday you'll achieve happiness.

all the best to you.

joaqui_miguel said...

Routine for some people is what keeps them going and for others it could mean insanity. I guess, it's your choice on which side you want to lean more. :)

Lance said...

..while walking, you'll calculate how many hours left (like you usually do) before you need to go to work again. once you have determined it, you'll squeeze yourself out for something worthwhile doing...

i can totally relate to this.. =(

i hope human can swap souls with animals for a day or two..
just for a change... nyahaha

Niel Camhalla said...

i think it's your cue to change something.

estan said...

a very familiar routine if not a ritual.

boying said...

teka. alam ko kung saan makikita si wanderer sa katipunan. hahaha. hmmm. mabuti nalang hindi ako nanghuhunting ng mga tao.

Keitaro Hanazawa said...

Life doesn't have to follow a routine. Isa pa, there's always something new every day. Lagi kang may makikitang bago, may makikilalang bago, may matututunan na bago. Hindi naman boring ang life. At hindi rin natin pilitin na maging content na tayo sa isang bagay kasi maghahanap at maghahanap pa rin tayo.

RONeiluke, RN said...

i was able to watch hellboy 2: the golden army last night. at pareho kayo ng sinasabi ng storyline... most people doesn't know contentment. prince moada in the movie even called humans as hollow creatures. man has a hole in his heart that nothing could fill...

pen said...

wanderer!

you're getting into it.. practice and read more and you will master the writer inside you. a few polishing,, but the rest is perfect!

this is the part that i like most..

"until you dream a small house infront of a beach, frames and frames of colorful canvasses, rolling terrains and two hands holding one another."

it is as if im being danced by the sea breeze.. perfect choice of words.. keep it up!

kudos!!

Chyng said...

i also get bored easily. kamusta naman, 4th job ko na in 18th months of being an employee! hehe

dabo said...

a few years ago Dr. Stephen Hawking, refuted his own opinion way back when he was younger, he said man is not going to know everything.

Hawking was trying to work on an unfinished theory by einstein, the Theory of everything (?) that if we have a single theory that could explain the universe, then we can know how the mind of God works..

Since man is not going to know everything, science doesn't have to end.

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basing the context of what you raised here in your blog and some mundane understanding of physics and theology, contentment is how the mind of God works, and to be curious is human, which is neither good or bad... we are made this way... but it is our choice we if we stay that way.


(Deu 29:29 - the secret things belong to the Lord our God, those things which are revealed belongs to us)

RONeiluke, RN said...

ang galing talaga niya. i could see he's very open minded and really smart. kamusta naman ang comment niya dito, may entry pa sa bible... T_T he knows almost anything noh?

the menace said...

talagang poetic ka sir. heheh