i am now beginning to believe that it is not always true when people say that one has a greater chance to his/her future with a good education. because in reality, a diploma and probably a couple of years of working experience are still not enough to shield you against life's frustrations.
there are even times when i asked myself, if i am just too picky with work? or if i failed to realize that life is not always the way i want it to be. But then why behind these questions, i can't stop myself from asking: then, what is this degree that i've proudly strived and earned for? is it a matter of a wrong juvenile decision when i was about to enter college?or a fatal mistake because i've followed my own passion rather than what the market demands?
it is really frustrating to know that here in the country, every person's ambition when they were kids are usually not the profession they end up with. such jobs are either not available in the work force or pay way less to support one's everyday expenses. because in the real world, there is no room for fairytale-like dreams and passions. it is only the market that matters. moreover, it is even more depressing to know that it is actually other countries who dictate what our life would be.
although sometimes i envy those people who take board and bar exams: those who blinds the street with their white uniforms: yuppies who wear neck ties and in formal attires: and most especially to those who landed on their dream jobs. because atleast they've become use of it.
if only somebody can tell me where i can buy a ticket to my dream job destination. then i'll be more willing to bring back the hope of getting my last pay and give it to them. but until now, i still don't know what i really want to do in life---a problem every sponatenous people has to think about for the sake of their future.
so help me god! (see im also beginnging to go back to my religion. now, that's frustration my friend!)