Sunday, February 28, 2010


is entering an unknown space and temporal quadrant, where all his writing juices freeze and his capability to write is suspended.

but he is struggling... striving to write something.

i guess theres a number of probable factors.

first, aside from his present academic loads, he is pressured to finish a visual novel for his last semester's class, where his former professor gave him an incomplete and compelled him to finish it in a year or else he'll fail. as of the moment, he hasn't absolutely done anything yet and even thinking of changing the entire story concept.

second, its been 10 months since he has been unemployed. the entire full time student thing is fun but whenever he thinks of his dues, it definitely stresses him out, especially his credit card bills and his rent. nonetheless, he still has his pride of not asking for any support from his parents.

third, the temptation of going and working abroad is slowly starting to open up, especially
whenever he see how his friends seem to be very "successful" in there pictures in facebook. seriously, he is on the verge of hopelessness on the thought of being hired again.

fourth, this will be as simple as, no inspiration as of the moment though he is not entertaining anything or anyone either.

and lastly, life starting to be in complete monotony again. probably that is basically it.

thinking its just not his year. does anyone knows if ox is compatible with tigers? cause for this lad its starting to spell danger.

sorry, just him ranting! its like what X, in the movie boy culture kinda said, a typical problem of a 24 guy who thinks as if he is already 40.

well, don't you miss it too? LOL


red the mod said...

Ah. The quarter-life crisis. Its entangling encroachment on one's sense of security, identity, belief system and valuation. A vast nothingness staring you with a question. A contemplation. As if your on an exam, and there's a time limit. Answers by the next birthday. Finished, or your finished.

Then you doubt. Or at least start to. Even the simplest of things, or those you've always been comfortable with. Your sanctum sanctorum now cracking. Breached. Blogging becomes a curse. A hurdle, just like how everything seems to be these days.

Steady lang, lilipas din yan.

rudeboy said...

Maybe you just have too much on your plate right now, ewik. Happens to the best of us.

ןıuǝ oɟ ɟןıƃɥʇ said...

maybe the universe is asking: what do you really want from life?

engel said...

working abroad isn't as cut out as people make it to be. besides, we always post pictures of happy times on social networking sites, and not the hard times, right?

anyway, good luck with your visual novel.

Padsiefoot said...

HEY!!! I have a suggestion on what you can write!!! ^__^

Finish CASAVAN!!

Menthos said...

Writing in the third person looks like fun!

"a typical problem of a 24 guy who thinks as if he is already 40"

on this one we have to agree to disagree.

the typical problem is thinking you are "mature" and that you already know everything there is to know about life. :-)

bunwich said...

quarter life crisis is visiting... he's in my house right now.

Anonymous said...

so this quarterlife crisis true.

ןıuǝ oɟ ɟןıƃɥʇ said...

i suspect no one saying "quarter life crisis" has passed midlife yet, so i assume they are really saying a crisis that coincides with quarter-life?

ʎonqʎʇıɔ said...

tama si engel. we only see the fun side. no one really shows pictures of themselves crying sa room missing their family.

or mahilig lang ako sa cliches. haha

Anonymous said...

bakit bumabaligtad at dyslexic ang mga name nyo huhuhu paano yan? inggit ako

Chyng said...

mga ate, di ko gets..

iurico said...

This, too, shall pass.

kiel estrella said...

kung may X ka sa boy culture, ako may whitney sa waiting to exhale. that is... exhale.

Jay Quiambao said...

Good luck on your visual novel. :)

Knoxxy said...

enjoy the ride. :)