Tuesday, March 17, 2009

silence

there we were lying on the floor beside each others' body, catching our breath as we share the same stick. its been a while since i saw your face. i almost forgot the mole beneath your jaw line and the way your eyes just stare blankly on such occasion.
its been six years, J and here we were again, together. sharing the same thing that was up to now remained unknown but we never mind talking about. all we know was, we were doing it despite the absence of reason.

suddenly, words came out of those lips that i have longed to touch.

"have you ever thought of settling down?" that was probably the most emotional question you have asked from me.

"probably," i answered.

"if we already have our own, will we still do this?"

"i guess not for it is simply unfair."

"i guess so too."

then silence walked inside the room without our notice. the same silence that keep on reappearing whenever we are together, haunting us as to hold our tounges inside our chests.

"if ever, will you be my best man?" he asked again.

"spare me," i answered while struggling to hold my tears from dropping unto his arms.

then silence began craddling us to slumber. as the day broke, all i could do was to accompany him as we walked out of the gate. just like the usual, i never bothered asking when will we meet again and just let fate decide for it.

two years later, i found you again. but not through a message from my cellphone or any cross roads like before. i saw you from a social networking site. i eagerly checked your profile up, browse almost all of your pictures and finally, closed the entire window.

i shut my eyes infront of my screen recalling each of those photos that in a way told me how you were. but beyond that, your eyes were full of colors and your smile was something i have never seen before.

all i could do was to smile and catch my tears as it fall.

oh, i just miss that silence.
*i must admit there are still moments from which the silence i have created within myself for six years is still haunting me.

15 comments:

Yj said...

where do we find these guys?

we're good people naman.... bat ganun?

Lionheart : Richard the Adventurer said...

Talagang ganun...

Just be patient for everything happens for a reason... hehe :)

KRIS JASPER said...

Hi WC! Thanks for visiting me again!

Herbs D. said...

how...sad..:(
was it a LGBT site?

don't you wanna settle down together?

i think one of the reasons why gay couple don't settle down is due to the absence of marriage.its the reason why i lot of guys these days, just fool around.

or maybe its just your choice to have a "NORMAL" life.

but i find it quite sad, and unfair if you'll still have sex with a man despite being married already. nice blog btw. mind if i follow? :)

jamie da vinci! said...

there, there... happiness will come eventually.

parteeboi said...

so sad... :-(

Chyng said...

Move on dear... Sabe mo nga, madame sa constru... (--,)

Luis Batchoy said...

oh well...when life gives you lemons, then its about time to genetically eliminate them damn lemon trees! Hehehehe

YJ: yang tanong na yan eh... nasagot ko na ata yan eh

gillboard said...

ang lungkot naman ng post na to... ok lang yan... makakakita ka rin ng makakatabi mo ulit sa katahimikan...

parang ang panget pakinggan...

elYAS said...

really, reason is flawed. ;0

Jinjiruks said...

ok lang iyon kuya ewik. ganyan din ako minsan. iniisip kung anu ang aking naging pagkukulang kung bakit hindi siya masaya sa piling ko at bakit kami nagkahiwalay. darating rin ang oras na ikaw naman ang sasaya!

dabo said...

drama at it's finest.

nova-san said...

There will always be those kind of people who will continually remind us of all the things we cannot have.

It's just the way life goes...

Aethen said...

sh!t. ma-drama. ayoko na!

bulitas said...

*pats you on the shoulders

tagos s rib-cage 'to.

someday you'll find your match.someday.