Tuesday, March 24, 2009

a dandelion's story


probably, sometimes this just what we need. something unexpected. something that would break the monotony of everything and cast you from the routine of everyday living.

yesterday, was the last meeting we had for my creative writing class. it actually feels good when one of the best filipino writers in the country appreciates and loves what you came up with for her class. but it seemed like if you find pure happiness in what you have achieved, it is also easier for frustration to succumb you and this was the feeling i was struggling to overcome as i made my work after that class.

early this morning, after my work shift was moved again for the nth time, my mom gave me a call. when i was about to tell her about my plans of resigning, she butted in and told me to go back to law school full time. it was mixed emotions that sprung from three thoughts: first, i was extremely excited for i could now easily quit work and find myself focusing in studying again. but i was also hesitant, knowing that i have to give up something that i am starting to like and go back to the life draining law school again. and lastly, it was just a pain in my ego.

now, this is what i am afraid of. it was just a post away when i said, i might regret things that i keep on asking and now its already here standing on the tip of my nose and yet, all i could do is look at it and could not even come up with a decision. i told my mom, i am going to think about it.

and now, i am still thinking about it and probably it would take more time to come with a decision.

here, if there is something very personal i could share to you guys (since i tend to avoid writing too private things about me), that is i could probably be one of the most mature person you'll know in handling personal and relationships matters as well as giving aside, modesty aside. on the other hand, i am the wimpiest worm you'll ever meet in terms of career matters. up until now, i still find it difficult to come up with an answer, what do you want to do in life?


in otherwords, i am the complete opposite of kris aquino three years ago, for lack of better ways of expressing it. go figure na lang!

hahaha!

13 comments:

the geek said...

hahaha i found your connection to kris..talk about exact opposites...

some of us are just lucky to have either a successful relationship and succesful career..to have both, heaven...

john stanley said...

we can't have everything, ewik. in most cases, at least something between career and personal life suffers. i have to agree with the geek that succeeding in both is a heavenly feeling.

for mere mortals like us, we just have to enjoy the small slices of happiness that heaven bestow upon us. =)

Herbs D. said...

i first found the kris thing random. but then after reading it "oh..hahaha". pagisipan mo yan ng mabuti. you only live once, make the right choices :)

pie said...

hay. goodluck sa bonggang-bonggang 48 glorious years na pagdedecide, ewik. :)

lucas said...

naalala ko you were a law student before. napakataxing nga ng endeavor na yun, pero what an achievement if you pull it off, right? do what you think is best for you, ewik...:)

you're taking creative writing classes? i wish i could attend one.

ps: bakit si kris? hehe!

tagabukid said...

natawa ako sa sign parang kwento ng buhay minsan may twist sa dulo hehe. ikaw ang writer ng kapalaran mo ikaw masusunod kung may twist ba o fluid lang ang takbo. sometimes it's scary to make a decision that requires a leap of faith. but then again sabi nga: no pain, no gain. dare to risk! you wouldn't know what waiting for you on the other side of the fence if you remain in your stable.

Trip said...

it's all in the mind. i could say that im successful in both because i am that person with less expectation. so i guess im in heaven now. hehehe.

Mugen said...

What's fun in living is the twist that lie ahead. Pansinin mo ang takbo ng buhay ko, puro drama, puro emo, puro senti, pero at the end, inaacknowledge ko ang fact na nagpapadala lang ako sa agos ng buhay.

Napanood ko yung Kung Fu Panda noong isang gabi. Marahil ay napanood mo na iyon 48 years ago pa. Pero gusto ko pa rin ibahagi sa iyo ang natutunan ko sa palabas na iyon.

There is a saying: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the "present."

Anuman ang maging desisyon mo, nawa'y tugma ito sa iyong hangaring pangkasalukuyan.

Yj said...

at kung nasanang puso mo... dun ka... hindi yan nagkakamali....

Chyng said...

ay, di ko gets! magphishing ako kay dave!

gillboard said...

ang mga dilemma ng mga tao ngayon sa blogosperyo kakaiba... hmmm...

yung sayo naman... gawin mo kung ano yung sa tingin mo eh may patutunguhan ka't mapaninindigan mo.

Eternal Wanderer... said...

Ermmm, I've been living under the stairs for the past decade or so.

What was with the Kris Aquino reference?

Sometimes, a whole lifetime won't be enough to figure out what you want to do with it ;)

Anonymous said...

napanood mo n ang milk?