probably, sometimes this just what we need. something unexpected. something that would break the monotony of everything and cast you from the routine of everyday living.
yesterday, was the last meeting we had for my creative writing class. it actually feels good when one of the best filipino writers in the country appreciates and loves what you came up with for her class. but it seemed like if you find pure happiness in what you have achieved, it is also easier for frustration to succumb you and this was the feeling i was struggling to overcome as i made my work after that class.
early this morning, after my work shift was moved again for the nth time, my mom gave me a call. when i was about to tell her about my plans of resigning, she butted in and told me to go back to law school full time. it was mixed emotions that sprung from three thoughts: first, i was extremely excited for i could now easily quit work and find myself focusing in studying again. but i was also hesitant, knowing that i have to give up something that i am starting to like and go back to the life draining law school again. and lastly, it was just a pain in my ego.
now, this is what i am afraid of. it was just a post away when i said, i might regret things that i keep on asking and now its already here standing on the tip of my nose and yet, all i could do is look at it and could not even come up with a decision. i told my mom, i am going to think about it.
and now, i am still thinking about it and probably it would take more time to come with a decision.
here, if there is something very personal i could share to you guys (since i tend to avoid writing too private things about me), that is i could probably be one of the most mature person you'll know in handling personal and relationships matters as well as giving aside, modesty aside. on the other hand, i am the wimpiest worm you'll ever meet in terms of career matters. up until now, i still find it difficult to come up with an answer, what do you want to do in life?
in otherwords, i am the complete opposite of kris aquino three years ago, for lack of better ways of expressing it. go figure na lang!