i must say that from the way things are going for me, it is indeed difficult to cope up with an environment quite new to you.
school so far, is good. despite the growing bulk of readings and cases that are being assigned to us by our professors each day. i really don't have much to say about it as of the moment. since i haven't got that many friends and experiences yet: aside from the fact that i pretty much spent most of my time either at work, commuting or at home.
on the other hand, work is pretty muck okay as well. probably, i am still enjoying it because i am still having the hang of actually doing something productive out from being a bum for more than two months last summer. so don't be surprised if two months from now, you'll see rants filling up my pages regarding work. but as of the moment i just try enjoying it as much as i can. especially with the fact that i was checking out a fellow newbie in the office. but it didn't take me that long to withdraw my interest.
A is your typical head turner. surprisingly, i am beginning to learn the taste of the like. A was the first person i met in the office. we became instant friends when we decided to sit beside one another. like the usual, it was pure silence at first. but eventually it proceeded into a conversation. then having lunch together and even accompanying me while i am smoking. nonetheless, the thing that struck me was when one of our immediate supervisor during that moment, that A will actually be one of my boss. sometimes it is really nice to know that there are good effects from being friendly.
as days passed by, i have learned so many things about A: has a daughter, has a partner from which they are just casual with one another and being one heck of a party animal. but don't get me wrong. there are no negative impressions about A being such. its just surprising for me to know that such a silent person could actually be such: that's down right broken stereotyping for you, ewik!
but wait... its not really these things that got my attention. as usual, it was one of our conversations that did. it was with this one time, out from nowhere A told me,
"personally, i don't believe in marriage. i am too young for that."
it took me quite sometime before i could even react with a lame, "oooohhhh...." finally, a more sensible topic that i could relate: regaining itself out of the tiring topic of "where to eat?," jollijeep etc.
A added that, "life is short to waste for a commitment that is binded by mere paper: that the best thing that you could do while you are young is to meet other people and enjoy each other's company---intimately, o di ba?! hahaha"
everything was actually going fine. considering that i am already getting and definitely can relate to the thoughts A beagn saying. for it is actually quite rare for one to meet someone with the same sentiment that you have in this lifetime. but everything crumbled down after the last line A said and left me still believing the rarity of such.
while i was riding a cab on my way to school, after work, i just realized so many things out from what happened.
in this time, it is a given fact that probably 7 out of the 10 people (between early adults to adults) you have encountered a minute ago, are no longer virgins. our perception of it are already anchored not only within the field of morality or mores. but also along the fact that modernity (through media, literature or what have you) have incorporated into us that there are so many other factors that reflects one's personality other than his/her virginity or sexualy activity. thus, it bears no great weight today than how it was before. atleast, in a metropolitan context.
nonetheless, like any other theories, facts or laws, there are always exemptions from these. regardless of how radical one's ideas or thoughts can be, there are still things that we need to consider and abide to achieve order, serenity and peace to oneself and to others: we all still need balance.
life doesn't revolve around sex neither good things in life only happens when you are having fun. we may plunge ourselves into a pool of it. but don't let yourselves drowned into it and probably the rest is up to you to ponder yourself.