perhaps, just like me, you are freaking out with this idea that i am writing you a letter. i thought of stripping down all the silence and hesitations we have had for the longest time, just for a change.
i grew up half of my life without you around since you have to work abroad to provide us with descent life and education. when i was a kid that i forgot how you look like and i would mistook my uncles or any male adult visitors as you. then mom would immediately call you and inform you about this.
one rare morning, i woke with you sleeping beside me with arms tightly wrapped around me. i cried so loud that moment, i think the loudest i ever cried. i ran towards mom's warm embrace seeking for refuge against you, who i thought was a hostile stranger. she then introduced you as my father. looking at your face felt like i was staring at my own reflection. then the resemblance confirmed everything.