Friday, June 25, 2010

deeper mark

it was that night,
when i thought that the silence
between us will be clearer
but when you stood up from bed the next day,
without looking back,
i then realized that it was still a dream
i kept on believing

the picture was clearer
than any of the illusions,
of any dreams that i ever had

my arms at the back of your head
while my right hand on your proud chest,
my cheek hiding on your strong back
as my lips were stealing chances

then i suddenly felt your grip
stronger than i ever thought it could be
it guided my arms and slip on the widest of your body
as it began to beg for warmth

if only it could leave a mark on my arm
so that i could prove to you that,
in the most vulnerable moment of your life,
you held on me
during your darkest and most fearful hours,
i was there

but by the time the sun rises,
the most selfish part of me ends.
you'll lit a cigarette,
dressed up and left the room

no words,
no gestures,
no goodbyes

the way it has always been

all that you had left of me,

a deeper and hidden mark
that means nothing to you
but everything for me


if only you could see that mark.

17 comments:

Darc Diarist said...

i am floored, that was beautiful...

wanderingcommuter said...

hey thanks!

Boying Opaw said...

beyond the invisible...





...wala lang. pumasok lang yun sa isip ko. hahahahaha.

wanderingcommuter said...

naks... ang lalim. hidni ko maarok! nyahaha

AJ said...

kaibigan, parang scar ba ito? gaano kalalim? : D

Anonymous said...

just be grateful that someone left that kind of mark...

'deeper' level na nga ang post na ito. iba talaga ang nagagawa if working girl ka na. hihihi

miss ur posts & mishu wiki!!!

-geek

Yj said...

bangin...

but it was a beautiful fall...

wasn't it?

Yas Jayson said...

big girls don't cry is playing in my head as i read this.

i really hate the human side of your writing. feel ko ako ang direktor sa bawa eksena sa mga sinusulat mo. direct participation baga. teehee

i missed your writing.

wanderingcommuter said...

aj: mas malalim sa inaakala mo. naks!

geek: miss you na din po... this july ha!

yj: yung fall mo ba, kamusta?

yas: nyahaha. ang mahalaga marunong kang magdetach pagkatapos...

lee said...

a bittersweet post... but still, it's beautiful.

thecuriouscat said...

:(

Nimmy said...

ganda!!!

wanderingcommuter said...

lee: bittersweet indeed.

xtian: may nagbabalik! humanda na sila!

nimmy: thanks!

Jake said...

Ang awe-inspiring naman ng piece na ito.

Parang gusto ko tuloy gumawa ng reply.

Ang title ay...Cebo de macho (pantanggal peklat).

Hahaha!

Mishu friend!

ʎonqʎʇıɔ said...

lumukso ang aking puso. parang naramdaman ko din. mahusay, kuya ewik!

gesmunds said...

awww... sad..
in a brighter side.., be thankful that you were able to love and be loved... even with impermanence...

nice post indeed. :)

wanderingcommuter said...

jake: hindi ka pa rin nagbabago. matanda pa din talaga mga joke mo. nonetheless, i miss you.

citybouy: hahaha... talagang lumukso eh noh? nyahaha. salamat po!

gesmund: hey thanks for passing by!