confessions

you commit yourself in a relationship, you simply commit because you love the person for s/he is. nothing less, nothing more. when you find yourself holding his/her hand, you tend to let him/her know that you are willing to compromise your differences. and by the time you kiss each other lips, you are bound to do the best of what you can for the relationship to work.
but just like a friend, once told me, it is not as simple as that. committing is not always as easy as 1+1 nor as sweet as a jam in a jar. sometimes you encounter difficulties and problems to strengthen your ties between each other, for you to appreciate the value of what you have and in order for you to have the drive to fight for it.
but i think, having this in mind tends to make us complicate things a stitch further. for me, loving is already a complicated thing and complicating your relationship is a little bit too much already. the mere task of determining whether you love a person or not is already an act of finding a needle in a haystack and the risk involves in saying your committing, in holding someone's hand or kissing, is already an indication that you are opening yourself from either being happier or getting hurt.
i say, you just have to live loving someone by the moment. never look back from the past nor be scared of the future. you just have to feel every inch of it and make sure that you do not miss a minute detail. you can even take it the way you want, the way it would suit you. you could take it slowly or abruptly, your choice.
but before anything else, you need to look for him/her first.


*habang wala pang nag-eemo lately.