Wednesday, October 12, 2011

random conversations, attraction and life thoughts

when i was growing up, i was believed that mutual attraction is the union of opposites; a never ending cycle of compliments; a concoction of appreciation and understanding of what lacks or whats different.

as one of my grade 5 teachers will always say during her discussion with puberty; boys will always like girls and girls will always like boys. like magnets, opposite attracts and similar repel- thats the law of attraction. Then the year after, i’ve heard she was already handling religion.

when i was in highschool, it became somehow different. but it was only when i reached college, when i finally realized that not all boys like girls and not all girls like boys. same goes with not all gays guys only go with straight men and lesbians only go with straight women.

it was just the other day when some officemates and i noticed how P already developed this talent with his lips. discreetly pointing it to someone he finds cute. and being pros on our own fields, we found our own discreet ways and poses just to find his object of attraction. then eventually laugh with each other after realizing how stupid our efforts were.

"go after him," S advised.

"do you think he's gay too? what if hes straight?" P asked while still locking his stare at the guy.

"would it matter if he is?" T followed.

"of course, it does. i don't want to get myself smacked on the face after making the first move--- thats every gay guys hook up dilemna."

"but isn't that what gay guys after--- straight men?" R reacted.

i tried hard not to laugh. then thats the time i felt that the conversation is becoming very interesting and we will be extending our lunch.

"where are you from? still stuck in the 80s?" P reacted.

"gay guys can only go with straight men if there is money involve, at least that is how it was from how they’ve portrayed it in the movies," T followed.

"wait... so you mean, if a straight guy sleeps (with all the word connotes) with a gay guy with no money involves, he is no longer straight?" it was R.

"of course!"

"but what if the guy is just simply horny that time and just need to find something or someone to release it with, wouldn't that at least be an exception?"

"i believe that for sex to be called sex, there should be at least attraction involve to titillate your thing or at least work your drive--- "

the line "opposites attract, similar repel" whispered inside my head.

"so if the straight guy was able to have sex with a gay guy, he should be at least attracted to the latter." (T)

"right!" (P)

"so he is no longer straight!" (R)

"yes! because of the law of attraction---" (S)

Again, i repeated the line inside my head while S stated it,

"opposites attract, similar repel."

"at least if we are following the law of attraction, attraction is purely among opposite sex."

then T argued, "how about attraction with the opposite preference?"

now there goes a rebuttal statement. how a subject of differences, drawn out from a similarity, produces an attraction.

“straight curious,” P exclaimed.

R laughed, “theres such a thing?”

“are you really in the same timeline as we are?”

“i guess so.”

everyone laughed.

“but actually sometimes the label is more of a front,”

“for what?”

“market value...”

“what are you chicken?”

“hahaha! you see, in the world where i am at.”

“internet world i supposed,”

“right! hahaha!” P continued, “the more straight looking you are, the higher your market value.”

“so i’m right, gay guys still go after straight men,” R replied.

“theoretically, true. but technically, not really.”

“so how would you know if someone is just saying he’s straight curious for a front?”

“if he already slept with more than one guy and he is still saying he is curious.”--- more laugh.

“is that something absolute?”

“nop, just figured it out on my own.”

“but why do you need to look as straight as possible? and wheres this market?”

yes. sometimes or most of the time, R’s naive-ness is really beyond normal comprehension.

“its somewhere in the wet area of nepa-q mart. Just try asking the porters outside for directions.”

We all laughed.

“actually, i remember another gay friend who explained to me that he prefers looking straight and having another straight looking as a partner, makes them hidden from other people’s judgment.”

“yeah, make sense.”

everyone agreed even R got the idea.

“so wheres that cutie again?” S broke the silence.

“he’s gone!” R replied.

“tsss! sayang! who started this conversation ba kasi? kainis!”


believe it or not, i didn’t say a single word from this conversation. i just realized, sometimes, it’s just fun to listen. set aside your views and discover what other people have to say.

seriously, i never really expected my officemates to have this kind of conversation. probably, i underestimated them. but yes, probably that is the wonder of not expecting to much from someone, they just surprise you.

s,t, r, p and i came from different schools and courses; different family background and interests; hence, different views, ideologies and opinions. most of the time, we are only binded with topics regarding work. after lunch that day, i just realize that regardless of differences the openness and diversity of such issue have gradually found its place on our life thoughts---

just because of random conversations like this and if only people will just start to listen.


Supladitong Officeboy said...

Believe me, lahat sila closet-curious. Hahaha!

Pero nasaan na nga ba 'yung cute guy?


engel said...

i have never had this kind of discussion with anyone in my life.

i think i need to hang out with more gay peeps.

citybuoy said...

i think it's conversations like this that good shows like sex and the city are rooted on. oo, mababaw references ko. so what? lolz

seriously tho, i think all gay people have their own idea and process of labeling and kailangan lang magtugma yung idea niyo of when a person becomes gay, kung tripper lang siya or bi-curious. i may not believe in the latter two but i'm sure the concept is real for some people. sila na bahala maghanapan. haha

wanderingcommuter said...

supladito: taga kabilang building... minsan nakakasabay pa din namin magyosi!

engel: you dont really have to, besides among these four officemates si P lang gay. si T ay straight guy at S and R naman ay mga babae. you just have to have an open mind about it.

citybouy: to each his own... :-

Mugen said...

Yung isang colleague mo ha, wiwik, he lives in stone age. Lol.

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ZaiZai said...

parang ang complicated minsan ng definitions, kasi ung iba ayaw mag pa label. pero simple lang naman talaga, pag pumatol sa kapwa, alam na! :)

Luis Batchoy said...

nice conversation

Ryan said...

sometimes, it’s just fun to listen. set aside your views and discover what other people have to say.

With that, I learned something not so new but something I need reminding. Thank you.

kalansaycollector said...

hay naku.
i hate labels pero world is full of labels.

hay gender is so complicated.hehe pero nice chikahan. nakakastimulate ng brain. :)

♥N said...

These kinds of conversations are wonderful, and even more proof that there really are no "rules" when it comes to the laws of attraction. There is no rhyme or reason as to how or why a person may become attracted. Sometimes what repels you will actually attract you, and what normally attracts you will repel you. It's all in the moment and circumstance I guess.

ןıuǝ oɟ ɟןıƃɥʇ said...

a proverb from zen in the art of archery: 'fundamentally, the marksman aims at himself"

Super Mario P. said...

Hahahaha very interesting conversation. Funny how everything seems obvious to us but not to them.

Anonymous said...

I am "straight looking" and I have been in relationships with "straight looking" guys too. But I never act this way to hide from other people. That's just how I act, I suppose. No pretensions. ;p

Anonymous said...

I am "straight looking" and I have been in relationships with "straight looking" guys too. But I never act that way to hide from other people's judgments. That's just how I am. Period. No pretensions. ;p

Anonymous said...

What I say is no different than any Republican in the quest to reduce the enormous scope of government.
All those years of increasing government. None of those people were laid off as we regulratly witness in the private sector. Imagine the dead weight on the payroll.
You have to start laying people off. Unfortunately insolvency is the goal the gods have for the United States.
It's kind of like Mom:::So evil she isn't eligible for punishment until the end of her life when it is too late

Brain scramble jokes. She was a fake.
All in this position likely are fakes. The gods want things to prgress according to their agenda, and the clone host fakes guarentee the legislation they desire/require.
They aree always fresh, new know-it-all 20 year olds, eager to hurt people and "earn", so the only way things will improve is ironically if our children improve, if parents raise considerate, moral children. But while we have trashy parents like my family the gods will always have an endless supply of immoral monsers happy to sabotage the country through legislation.

In the course of decay and deterioration of the favor of the people the gods instructed their clone host tools in corporate to make changes to their products and subsequently in people's lives. The switch to plastic/disposable-based packaging is an outstanding example. Another is the extensive use/proliferation of disposable diapers. Whereas diaper services were the norm during the 20th cenutry a change occurred in the 70s/80s and parents began to incurr evil upon their children, and sadly in some cases think they were "earning" off their own infant children!!!

The gods are malicious and vindictive. Nobody wants to hear it because you've invested your whole lives but there's backstabbing underhanded shit they inflict on the people.
What I teach is the truth, and they will let me fall for it despite using me as their "Chosen One" to send you this message. Ultimately you will all be "rewarded" with your "consolation prize" and think you were right all along. But the truth is and always will be that you've been left behind.

The Anti-Christ is the positioning, whether enforcing the historical perception of the Holocaust, refusing to acknolowdge the existance/capability of Artificial Intelligence or the clone host fakes who infest society's upper eschelons, those whom the gods use to enforce the BigLie which compells people to incurr evil through temptation.
The gods are composer, conductor and the clone hosts are their symphony, the tools they use to manage Planet Earth and the disfavored who reside.
Everyone "going along" is part of the problem. Ironically, this may be where you "earn" your place in the Apocalypse, the fake "Matrix" battle of good and evil, and your "consolation prize" of "1000 years with Jesus on Earth".
This is the REAL battle of good and evil. Take it or leave it.

Many tactics were used to achieve the decline we realized as we slipped away from sexual decency, but the effective result was deterioration down to the level of OUR blacks, the Italians, ironically. The gods are punishing the people, and we need to abate the destructive behavior which has dragged us individually and collectively towards the edge of the abyss.