what soberness conceals, drunkenness reveals

"when is the best time to confess that your positive to the person you are dating?"

"after the first kiss?"

everyone laughed.

"as soon as possible," a friend and i chorally answered.

honestly, i was also surprised with my response. for after months and months of contemplating everything about it, i couldn't believe that i would be able to finally draw out a spontaneous answer, which usually take me a long time before.

it all begun in that party. in the middle of free flowing booze and beer-soaked pizza and tacos, someone threw out that question. but in all fairness, despite the loud band music and everyone busily minding their own businesses..."ehem"... businesses, it successfully got every body's attention.

for the first time, i was overwhelmed with the fact that after a long time of avoiding the topic, i was actually caught off guardedly sitting on a table of several people openly talking about it; and was able to engage myself on such discussion. for most of the time, i would either asked to change the topic or just keep quiet until we move on to the next.

"is it really that easy?," he asked.

"well for me, if someone who is positive won't be able to own it, then how much more will he expect the person he is dating to accept that fact?" i answered, " i think if you really like the person, what he has shouldn't really define who he is. on the other hand, when it comes to that, i believe that there are actually a hundred ways to actualize it without getting infected. in the first place, it shouldn't really all about that, right?"

a sudden pause engulfed us. then he softly lifted and moved the topic as if a plate of nachos to his friend sitting beside him.

"well, i just don't get it why people like him, who is so faithful to his partner despite my efforts to sway him to cheat around would actually get it?"

then there was another silence. suddenly, i saw his friend rebutting something out of what he have said but i failed to catch it.

nonetheless, my night fast forwarded with what he said. then, i taught how wide the possibilities can be, how large the chances are and just because of one or a number of mistake, something will inevitably change.

so much for change being the only constant thing in life, huh?!

then as i carry myself to bed, i closed my eyes and told myself not to forget to appreciate the next day ahead.