why do i like fishes part 2

six years ago, i walked inside our apartment carrying a box of hard glass filled with water and fishes. i remembered i felt bringing back memories of childhood that day that i have decided to buy myself an aquarium, a pair of gold fishes and a water snake. i was so amazed with what i bought that i can't take my eyes off of it. i even thought of buying water plants, more colorful pebbles that would add up to its texture, filters, light bulbs that would intensify the colors inside and more fishes. i wanted my set up to be one of the most elegant aquariums there will ever be. the type of set up that would beat those aquariums in fish museums.

suddenly, one of my housemates noticed that i couldn't stop myself from feeding the fishes with fish pellets. he approached my aquarium and warned me not to overfeed it. it might bloat and kill the fishes. so obviously, i stopped. then he added, "someone once told me that if you'll be able to maintain all your fishes alive, this would tell you that you are already prepared to enter a relationship." i was literally left clueless with what he have said. what does maintaining an aquarium has to do with having a relationship? he just smiled back at me and went inside his room.

a couple of weeks after, the fishes and the water snake died. i never bought another aquarium again because of depression. i just trained myself to be contended with watching them in animal planet.

special thanks to kuya joms for the two tetras and 3 red mollies. i am still accepting for sponsors. hehehe.

but now, i bought myself another set up. while i was changing the water of the aquarium for the third time this week, i have realized the effort that i have put into it. the things that i need to buy like water coditioner, filters etc. just to keep the water clean and the fishes alive. then i remembered what my former housemate told me. i am now getting what he is actually pointing out. entering a relationship is just like having and maintaining an aquarium. sometimes we are so amazed with the idea without really understanding the effort and investments that it needs. thus, most of the time, we sensationalize relationships. we just keep on saying that we need to have a boyfriend or girlfriend just for the heck of having one. we are delighted with the picture of romance, partnership, commitment and even sex without actually looking what is underneath it. the worst part of this is, it takes our heart to be broken first before we can realize these things hiding beneath the surface. believe me, i know. for i had my own share of the deal and hoping it would not happen anymore.

the bottomline story is we are all kids desperately wanting a new pet because they are cute, we want to cuddle them, take care of them and what have you. but without really considering our readiness in carrying on the responsibility. thus, this eventually lead us in getting ourselves depress while watching our pet die.